Sunday Funday

So this weekend was pretty much budget and car talk...and now I'm spent. Matt and I have a tendency to over plan. We have decided that we're going to spend May and June getting info on pregnancy, infants, and child care, and then we'll really start trying. We have a plan, and I won't go into specifics, except to say we're shooting for our first child to be born next April or after. And that way I'm not full-blown pregnant in the worst part of winter (Dec-Feb). I'm fine with this...it will give me time to finish out the school year and my ESL endorsement.

We still have no idea what kind of car we're getting. I think we should go with a Subaru Outback, but I don't think that's going to happen. It's amazing how really good things can cause stress, too.

I have a hard time taking it one day at a time. I tend to look at the bigger picture too much, which can be overwhelming. I know we can handle whatever comes our way. And I know there is no way to ever be 100% prepared, because even what tomorrow holds is unknown...but I have a hard time letting go and trusting fate, even though it has been very good to me so far.

I think I take too much on, in all aspects of my life, because I like to feel in control. But it is definitely wearing me out. I wish I could be more carefree but wonder if I ever will. This isn't to say I'm unhappy; it's just to say I have a habit of questioning everything, which hasn't exactly gotten me closer to the answers.