Mixed signals

A few days ago Matt did the budget and saw that we would have some extra money for the rest of the month. He bought tickets to a hockey game and told me I could get something, too. He wanted me to call Spa Bleu about the pricing for thermal reconditioning. Well, now he says we probably don't have enough money for that. I just hate this back and forth. I hate getting my hopes up not to have something work out. I was really excited about finally getting to do this. Yesterday I saw a liquid keratin straightening kit at Ulta for $70 and even suggested I do that instead. He said it wouldn't have the same results and I should just see a professional. What he doesn't realize is that I have been putting TR off for almost a year now...when will we have the money for me to see a professional? I probably sound like a spoiled brat. I really don't care if I go pro or DIY on this...I just want to get the green light to do something. I haven't bought myself a new outfit or even gotten a haircut since before Thanksgiving. It is hard going from living on my own, being able to spend my money how I want, to never seeing a paycheck. I feel like it's not even my money and that I'm on an allowance or something. Matt always tells me I don't have to ask for permission to spend money, but he always comments about how close it is every week/month (probably because he pays so much on our CC bill that there's not much left afterward), and that makes me afraid to spend money.

I think the best thing I can do is propose we both set aside some individual discretionary spending money each month (even if it's only $50/mo). And until we're back in surplus mode, a haircut and box of coloring will have to do. I'll get a quote from Spa Bleu on TR, but the actual process will just have to wait.