Stepping Back

Even though I had an extra day off, the weekend still seemed too short. I always try to savor each moment, but the time just slips away somehow. I cleaned the house on Friday and then took the Rover to Sears for an oil change. I met Matt for lunch at Buddyz (pizza buffet!). We had drinks at Emmetts with Dan that night, then he crashed in our guest room. Saturday was my first day back in grad school after spring break. The instructors seem awesome, but these classes are going to be A LOT of work!!! My mind is still reeling. This week is going to be nuts....David (aka my crazy co worker) is out until Thursday (a blessing in disguise?), so I'm going to be doing all his work on top of my admin duties. Luckily, Jamie is awesome; without her, my center would not be the refuge it is for our kids. I have to submit my self appraisal to my manager by Friday. I also have to do a bunch of stuff for class, practice for my interview at Stevenson HS on Friday, and start working on my employee evaluations. I'm definitely not looking forward to doing summer school registration meetings, either, as I have no idea what I'm doing when it comes to that!

I feel very stressed right now. I am pleased with how my center is doing. I love my students and am proud of the work I do. But I am super stressed about evaluating David. I am giving him low marks, so reviewing that with him is going to be very uncomfortable. As far as grad school goes, I enjoy interacting with other teachers every Saturday. I have learned a lot from my classmates. But I'm so ready to be done with my endorsement. I am excited about the last day of class, knowing I'll be eligible to teach ESL and that I won't have to give up my Saturdays anymore!

What I'm praying for above all is that Matt hears about his promotion soon. The suspense is taking its toll. Sometimes ambiguity/uncertainty is worse than the harsh reality. If he doesn't get the promotion, we'll survive. It's better to know and be able to move on than be stuck in perpetual limbo (he originally applied for this position last September...it's taking FOREVER!!!).

Overall, I am happy with life and am grateful for all the blessings I've been given. Stepping back from the chaos I realize that everything on my plate is a blessing. Not all stress is bad. I just need to pull myself together, get through the next two months, and then treat myself to an awesome massage and some good wine!